Sunday, April 29, 2007

Sleeping dreamland

I rewrote the record books for my waking up time for the first time this year. I clocked up and amazing11 hours of sleep from 3am to 1.40pm today. Amazing. I've never woken up later than 12-12.30 before this. Its a record that i'm not proud of. Anyway I had this super weird dream this morning, or rather this afternoon before I woke up.
I dreamt that I was in this mansion that i've never seen before which was supposed to be my house. I had this girl (supposedly my YOUNGER sister) she slept this room decorated with pink wallpaper with winnie the pooh prints. Her name was Kai Li i think and her room was like underneath the stairs. Anyway the house was empty, even Kai Li wasn't in. But apparently I was in my room with Chia Weei and all the lights were off and we were looking out of the window.
Here's the funny part, the both of us were dreading the arrival of Voldermort( yes, Voldermort). We were in my room working the lighter(use the lighter to kill Voldermort)?? That I dunno. Anyway, I remember dreaming that Voldermort travelled in this car well actually van that was flaming on the back half. Kinda like the Ghost Rider. Anyway, were were waiting in silence and darkness for him. Chia Weei kept testing the lighter to make sure it was working.Then suddenly my entire family appear at the door step. Yes, the entire family. Grandparents from both sides, cousins from KL. Everybody was there, then i quickly open the door to let them in....
Then I woke up...
Awesome

Saturday, April 28, 2007

Baldness



BEFORE




AFTER

Yup, today I finally brave myself to go for the hair cut. WELL essentially I was fulfilling my promise to all the Gods in heaven that I would shave myself bald if I managed to stay in VJC and I did so I must shave. But the shave was a bit not successful though. The barber refused to totally shave bald for me so I ended up with this horrible looking army crew cut which looks quite not army like and ugly and shapeless. Sighxx, there it goes again. Have to wait a few weeks for my hair to grow back again or I go back to the barber tomorrow and tell him i want a skin shave.. Haix, wat a failure. Technically, I still haven't fulfilled my promise to God so I've to go back again. But the second time won't be so bad I know.

The Booming Pipe Organ

Damn it Gwen, she had to be sick and not come. So i've to postpone my class performance for another week and that means 1 more week for 2 hours practice a day. Haix. I just want to get this thing out and over with.
Anyway, this morning, or rather yesterday morning, I went live on air on radio 938 live on campus together with a 100++ other students. The topic of the day was are JC courses still relevant in today's world and guess what, I saw the legendary Tony Buzan!!! INVENTOR OF MIND MAPS. He isn't a nerd like what i've thought him to be. He is actually is highly knowledgeable, well-read and funny guy. I felt the questions that the students asked were abit irrelevant to the question though. They were much more contented with directing questions at the MOE rep, asking her why contrasting subject, why study mother tongue and all those stuff. I felt it was irrelevant but I felt what the radio DJ, Ms Vanessa said was extremely true. Poly ppl tend to be quite sure about what they want in life whereas JC ppl are like in the midst of making up their minds and choose to learn everything for the time being. Mr Buzan's response to the need to study the contrasting subject was that we should polarize the arts and the sciences. If we separate them, then we are only learning half of what this world has to offer. Everything is interlink together, no subject is boring, its just the way they are presented that is boring. Then he quoted Da Vinci saying Its not about arts or sciences but rather the art of science and the science of art which is absolutely true. So i was really inspired by that quote for the rest of the day. I wished I could have a up close and personal session with him. It would be really cool to learn from him.
I really admire Ting Kai who already has his career planned out in front of him. After his NS, he is going to China to pursue music studies and stuff which is really great for him. Then he fell back onto me asking me what have I planned for myself. Well, I can't really go to a conservatory because I'm simply not good enough for one. I kinda regret those younger days where I should have devoted more time to the violin, get a better teacher, practise 3,4 hours a day when I had a time. Now when I hardly have anything then I try to practice 2 hours a day which is taking a toll on all my other subjects I'm taking. I told him I wanted to be a pop musician then he said pop musicians simply come and go. I thought about it deeply and felt yeah, that was true. Many people have come and gone, only unique ones like Jay Chou, Wang Li Hom are able to sustain themselves for a very long time. Maybe its their appealing aesthetics or their marvelous composition skills or their technical ability. What makes me unique then? How am I going to survive in that competitive Hollywood which is Taiwan??? I'll take things as they come and not think too much about the future. For now, I'm just going to focus on the violin. I finally revealed my dreams of playing Tchaikovsky's Violin Concerto and Butterfly Lovers Concerto to Mrs Soh and classmates.. Well, I guess they must have thought:"Good luck to u man!" Oh well, life goes on. I dun have the gifts that Mel and Ting Kai have but I'll make to do with what I have. I want to express, but I can't... That is the greatest problem.
We borrowed some Mendelssohn trios and Schumann trios from the library so I'm going to try them out tomorrow. Haven't tried any Romantic pieces for a very long time though because my intonation is atrocious and terribly inaccurate so.... lets see how it does then...I want super fingers and control and tone balance!!!
The organ concert at night by Carol Williams where yet again the entire Music Class was unable to go due to Gwen's mysterious illness was okayish.. The modern pieces simply felt weird. In some of the pieces I felt the rhythm was somewhat out. Mrs Soh agreed. So I was like thinking how can this world class artist play out of rhythm. Its terrible. I guess most of us don't really understand organ music nor can we appreciate the sound. Mel was sleeping beside me!!! Stacy was looking nonchalant, kinda blank look. Ting Kai was giving a bewildered smile. I was expressionless. But the Pipe Organ, the King of Instruments is simply amazing. It practically can imitate the entire orchestra. There are some reedy sounds which imitate the oboe, some that imitate the clarinet, the bassoon, the lower basses, trumpets. Simply amazing the palette of tone colours and timbre that the organ can create. I realised today that the Esplanade actually has 2 organs. One up there on circle 1 level which we normally see and another is actually stored under the stage and can be connected electrically to the one up there so the organist can actually play on stage level which the sounds coming out from the pipes above. Carol Williams was commenting how great the Klais organ in Esplanade was. Upon taking a closer look at the organ, I realised it was a complicated instrument with all the knobs and keyboards. 4 limbs coordination. Just mind blowing. The traditional looking organ actually has a floppy disk drive which kills its traditional look. It looks like an electone upon close inspection.
Anyway, after the concert, the 4 of us gathered and walked around for a while. Apparently, the outdoor theater is under construction and the next gig at the temporary theater beside it started at 10pm, it was only 9pm so we turned back and made out separate ways home.
The END

Friday, April 27, 2007

Bloody!!! Literally and tired


YAY, I made my first blood donation today!!! 26 April 2007. It was so damn exciting. The doctor asked a whole lot of questions about my sexuality, my sexual inclination and stuff like that. Of course I wasn't gay, didn't make multiple sex partners and didn't have AIDS nor did i have sex with ppl that had AIDS, not that I had sex before in the first place :)...
The picture above shows me posing with the rubber stressball heart before they stuck the needles in me to suck my blood. Coincidentally, I got to know a new friend during blood donation. Her name is Ashley and she's the legendary ownage sprinter from VJ. Kinda high person, so excited about everything and wanted to take pictures of everything and anything and she insisted on taking a photo of me. I thought she was those kind damn quiet and damn fierce person. Anyway, she gave me this maths equation that Girls=Evil. The funny thing was when the nurse wanted to jab she, she suddenly became so scared and pale, not even daring to look at her own blood...

Here's the equation

Girls= Time x Money
Time= Money
Hence,
Girls= (Money) squared
Money= Root of all evil
Hence,
Girls= (Root evil)squared
Girls= Evil

quite cool actually....

Friday 27 April, I'm going to have a class performance again and I'm very nervous about it.
I was practising just now can couldn't get any of the runs right. My fingers just wouldn't want to respond. They were feeling tight and cramppy... This really sucks. I'm in real trouble..
Feeling emo, I decided to take out the Mayday concert DVD again and watched the concert...
Its just so mind blowing.. How I wish I was Ashin, standing there on stage looking down at the huge crowd singing songs I wrote and composed myself. Or Maybe Monster, strumming and picking my way thru those runs and riffs, absolutely heavenly. Maybe even Guan You, sitting behind there, surrounded by snares, toms and cymbals. Kicking the basses, stroking each and every drum head... Its just so very cool.
Singing songs that will bring tears to ppl's eyes. Watching Ashin sing Zhi Zu, tears kinda started forming in my eyes too although I blinked them away. I wasn't alone, as the camera panned thru the crowd, many ppl were crying too... The results as just so incredible...
Ren Sheng Hai Hai was INCREDIBLE... Lalalalalalalala..........
MINDBLOWING.... I wanna be a part of it....

My tagboard hasn't been loading on my comp for a few days now so i was glad to see new ppl posting there besides that irresistible copykate ;-)
Thanks for the encouragement Josh, in response to your comments, I just wanna say I never really totally wanted to impress, I wanted to express my favourite concertos, favourite riffs, favourite songs. But I couldn't express due to the limitations of my technical ability. Maybe I should just become GOD.... Till then... I'm still trying my best..
Violin practices has increased from thrice a week last year to 1 hour a day beginning of this year to 2 hours a day this year. At the end of every session, my fingers just won't respond anymore.
Music is tough but I'm determine to survive and tell the tale.

我要知足,知足, 知足和快乐。。。

我问一问我自己,什么是知足???
什么是知足??
不管怎样。。。
我还是要做梦。。。
我还是要做梦。。。。
做梦。。。
人没了梦想,
就像咸鱼一样。。
咸鱼翻身,还是咸鱼。。。
人翻身,就会变超人。。
世界如果被残酷攻击。。。
谁来接续我的超能力。。。

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

I'm easilly subjected to emotional changes

I think I'm the type of person who is easily subjected to external factors changing my emotions.. I came home from Parkway and opened up my iTunes and selected playlist Jay Chou and then all these past memories and emotions just flowed thru me that even the hairs stood up on my neck and hands as I just closed my eyes to comprehend everything. Fa Ru Xue just brought back memories from last year.. I recalled quite many instances where I was listening to this song.. Kai Bu Liao Kou, even more memories from an even longer time ago. 2 years back in RIB. Listening to the lyrics closely... kai bu liao kou rang ta zhi dao.... haha... simply memories... Then there was Wu Ding, the duet... haix... just so many thoughts running thru my mind. How different times are now from then... Thats why I uploaded the above picture. Taken from my first night back in England. It was post O levels then, no worries, no homework, no worries about music, maths, physics, chem, GP, PW..... NO constant 2 hour practices everyday.. The first true holidays that I had taken in years...Oh, not forgetting Shan Hu Hai....

Anyway, wats gone has gone. Back to reality now... Feeling so hot and sticky... Even when I sleep without a shirt on I still wake up all hot, sticky and sweaty.. How I admire all my local friends who have the comforts of their homes with aircon, TV, no smelly perk and everything. Maybe I should just sleep in school. Oh Ju Hua Tai and Feng.... Haha these songs are playing as I'm typing so I can't help not mentioning them..

I'm satisfied that I get to devout more of my time to the Guitar Ensemble now. Hope the disappointment of not getting into exco passes soon... Maybe being a concertmaster will make up for that disappointment.. Going to train hard on the guitar now.. Apart from the 2 hours that I spend with my violin EVERYDAY... Most ppl say soccer and cross hardcore train everyday. Well I also train everyday... Need to find need repertoire. Bach Partita in E Gavotte en Rondeau, Tchaikovsky's Violin Concerto 2nd movement Canzonetta.. Then on to my dreams... Dunno if they will come true anyway.

I've been concentrating so much power on Music that i've totally neglected the other subjects and now the cold hard truth about where I stand compared to my other classmates are starting to hit me.. Maths test, 1 got first in class (count from the back) a pathetic 3.5 out of 20.. First time I've set that kind of record for maths.. Music I got the highest in class(this time count from the front) but it was still a fail grade of 12 out of 30. The others weren't too far behind so there is actually nothing to be comforted about. Gwen got the same marks as me too.

Aaron is real good at the guitar.. Looks like my dream of getting beyond the first stage of music fest next year is going to come true. Aaron on the guitar, me on the drums, xian yong on the vocals. Just missing a bassist, and if possible another guitarist and keyboardist.. Which shouldn't be too much of a problem..

I'm started to mix better with my classmates especially the guys. I get to join the the jokes, the games, the fun now so I guess things are really progressing nicely and its something I should be happy about. Just wished that we had more chances at outings.. Movies, eating out... should be fun... All the best to everybody, I'm off to do my music test corrections now..

Anticipating AC Milan vs Manchester United and Chelsea vs Liverpool

Monday, April 23, 2007

You Tiao Overload

Hey readers, I must say that the Soya Milk and You Tiao at Rocher Road opposite Paradiz Centre is just so good. SO good that I had a craving for it suddenly and rushed all the way from East Coast to there just to eat it.. Haha.. Its only a few minutes walk from the Cathay Cineplex Dhoby Ghaut and its really cheap and nice. My meal of 1 you tiao, 1 cold soya milk and 1 hot tou hua was only 2 bucks... Thats so freaking cheap.... So come on down there if you haven't tried it yet...

Mendelssohn Trio....

Violin shopping....
1930 French violin with a whopping 38000 bucks price tags... I would sure need to get my dad drunk before we start talking about violins... :-D

Friday, April 20, 2007

Being on TOP!!!!

2005.....Singapore Conference Hall
Catholic High School...... GOLD.....
I remember that scene vividly..... The people from other schools were cheering and clapping yet all was glum for the Cat High CO...
Fast forward to 2007-04-19.... Singapore Conference Hall
Victoria Junior College...... GOLD.....
Where was the two words I wanted to hear most?? Where was the "WITH HONOURS"....
This time it was worst.... Tears started falling from the girls in front of me.....
Disappointed we were, disappointed I was......
WHAT THE HELL do I have to do to be on the top in terms of music....
WHAT THE HELL do I have to do to get that ultimate feeling, the feeling of finally winning, that feeling of achievement and satisfaction....
Recalling 2006....
CO Concert... I was so damn disappointed with my substandard performance during the CO Concert at SCH....
CHMA.... The winning band is.... P.I.J..... Against left disappointed....
2007....
Music class, VJC.....
Andrew, your sense of phrasing was wrong. You need to rework this piece, its quite bad....

What do all these disappointments have in common.. They were all part of music. Part of my supposedly niche, part of my interest, part of my life...
Time and time again I was rendered disappointed with the results.
The feeling of being on top can only remain a dream for me...
What does it take to feel like P.I.J, like CHSSB, like VJChoir, like Loh Jun Hong, or even Gil Shaham or even Itzhak Perlman?
I want to stand on stage and play my heart out and be satisfied with the ultimate results... I want to win competitions, I want to be able to stand on stage and not feel nervous at all... With the flick of my bow, I want to play Paganini's Caprices. No 1, No. 24, I want to play La Campanella, I want to play Sarasate's Gypsy Airs, I wanna play Ravel's Tzigane and ultimately I wanna play Tchaikovsky's Violin Concerto in D and the Butterfly Lover's Concertoes...
These are my ultimate dreams. Most would call me a dreamer... Dreaming of the impossible..
Maybe its true, these are just dreams... Bring yourself back to reality, you can hardly play in tune, you can hardly thrill as fast, your bow is barely correct....
FIGHT these stumbling blocks... Attack them... DESTROY THEM!!! I'M KING... I DON'T want to be disappointed again...
Guitar Perfect 5th concert and VJ Music Programme Concert remains....
Come on, be realistic....
I ain't no child prodigy, I ain't no perfect pitch....
Internal conflict....
I expected the "the learning process is the most important part" words from Mrs Soh...
To me, these are just excuses, they are just self consolation. Only for the weak, only for those who have lost, something for them to fall back upon and console themselves....
MUSIC!!! WHY are you treating me like this????

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Its too late....... Is it?

Football


This is just a test post. My first post with a picture on it. Thanks to copykate for teaching me how to do something as simple as posting a picture. I need to generate more traffic for my blog. Maybe I'll post my music here. The internet has been down for a week down.. Sucks...

Sunday, April 8, 2007

Dear Diary......

Hello to whoever is going to read my blog....Greetings from the tiny red dot in the world map that is Singapore.
I can't believe how fulfilling today has been,oh its Easter Saturday btw although i don't celebrate it but is supposed to be the day Christ was Resurrected. Anyway, woke up at 11am traveled all the way to Woodlands, visited my aunt and grandma. The usual yada,yada. Eat more, eat more they say. U are too thin and dark!!! Fat and unfit is my reply.. Read the usual newspaper. Mel calls to ask if Audrey called... (How quaint) No, Audrey didn't call. (She's my music teacher btw). Audrey decides to spend dinner with her beloved husband and ffk (fong fei kei) at the last minute (well actually 3 hours before) so I tell Mel okay then. I'll eat dinner myself. Mel says NO!!! I'll be alone. So there goes my budget out of the window and I say okay then I'll meet up with u for dinner. City Hall 6pm Mel says.
After more snacks, I finally got out of my aunt's place on my way to City Hall. The rain is pouring like crazy. Just hoping it will be the same at Sepang to spice up the F1 race a bit. Reach there, Mel's late. Caught side of her. Decides to eat Ichiban Boshi (yet again, I'm becoming their VIP customer). The queue is so long. Walks out to that dunno what food court beside Esplanade, and lo and behold all the tables are wet. The dry ones are taken DUH!!! Jay walk across the road to Marina Square. Mel is scared of jay walking btw but too bad cos today she's hangin out with a true blue Malaysians and if u don't jay walk (especially below a pedestrain bridge or before the traffic lights), you are not a Malaysian :-D
Eats dinner. Mel buys this Chee Cheong Fun ( which reminds me of Alan Chee) that she can't finish which I half finish for her (its delicious so I didn't really mind). We rush to Esplanade 5 minutes before concert with Audrey not looking too happy. Shakes hand with Mr. Soh and proceed into the concert hall, we get really great seats in front of the stage.
Now the exciting part begins....
I guess I can call the Yong Siew Toh Orchestra the PRC Orchestra. I mean its like almost every single member is from that big country up there. Anyway, YST is good. Their music is good. Didn't quite understand the Bloch Concerto Grosso initially but Qin Li-Wei playing Tchaikovsky's Variations on a Rococo Theme was so good. His intonation was perfect (though Mel said one note was out of tune). His expression and phrasing was great. The sound was great too. 3 encore pieces, thats like a record number for me. A Gavotte by can't-hear-what-he-said, a Bach piece and Prokofiev's March....Superb is all I can say. He really is good. Proko's Romeo and Juliet Suite was powerful I would say. When the whole orchestra entered it was like so mind blowingly loud and powerful it blew me out of my seat. The strings section top form. Ting Kai said the final cadence the flutist was doing circular breathing but apparently he screwed it up. Mel said there was an instrument out of tune/ wrong intonation. Listening to music really is different sitting beside experts... Anyway, the encore piece was even better. It was POWERFUL!!!! It even had my tiny hairs around my arms and neck standing up. It was Edward Elgar's Pomps and Circumstance No.1. The percussion, strings, brass were just so GOOD!!!! As an Englishmen myself, I just wanted to stand up and do the half squat action they always do at the Proms. I felt this was even more powerful than the BBC Symphony recording that I heard. One day I'm going to the Royal Albert Hall to catch a glimpse of the Last Night. The second theme is like stuck in my head now. I feel very proud to be and Englishmen with all these great music. La, lalalala, Laaaaa, Laaaaaaaaaaaa. WOWOWOWOWOWWWWWW!!!!! So high.
Its already 4am. Completed that stupid Vivaldi homework. Going to try to sleep. Its like so sticky hot. Take another bath??? I wanna be in the SNYO!!!! I wanna be a pro violinist!!! Please support me!!!